still don’t know what I’m doing

I had an idea that this one (below) was not really a painting, but really a drawing in disguise. I had/have a notion (that may be too either/or) that drawing and painting should really be quite different.

Also, my teacher points out the things I’m doing that I didn’t know I was doing. So few of my decisions seem intentional. But I take in the ideas and suggestions, so maybe I’m understanding more than I think? Hard to explain.